So this past saturday i had the chance to attend my cousin's wedding in new orleans..while it was a very lovely event..it just left me feeling empty..like i was the only one there who didn't have somebody..
I'm not sure what it is..It's as if i'm trapped in this box with no windows and no doors..so even if i wanted to let someone in, i couldn't..and i absolutely hate it..
Every single attempt I made this year at getting someone only ended in failure and rejection..it seems like i've tried everything and the only thing that i can come up with is that there's something wrong with me and those around me are just too nice to tell me..or just don't care enough to notice..
the one thing i know for certain is that i want that to change..but i can't since i don't know what needs to be done..no one tells me what's wrong or what i could do better..all i hear is about how i'm such a funny, nice, awesome guy..well that doesn't help me at all..cause if i'm as awesome as you say i am..then it shouldn't be like this..i should be like everyone else..
it would be so nice to know what's going on..what i'm doing wrong..what i'm not doing that i should be..just anything that could make this loneliness go away..someone to make me forget all those days and nights waiting for someone to care enough to invite me to do something..anything at all..
maybe one day it will happen..i just hope that it will be someday soon..
